Fulfillment

This post will be saved for a future topic that is going to come tonight. I must get my thoughts together but finally I have something to write.

Chantella

Peacefully Praying

I just have a few thoughts running through my head that I did not want to share with FB.

My cousin passed away yesterday...we went to the hospital and the coroner came and picked her up. How on earth do you react to a situation when you know everything is alright.

I feel like my body is numb with emotion. I am emotionless because we don't talk with the family. First off we left "The Church" my Uncle Pastored when I was like maybe 10 or 12 we pretty much I feel got shunned from the "Family" so when we went to the hospital I was expecting a freak out of, "why are you here you're not a part of the family" sort of thing. luckily that did not happen. We embraced everyone and hugged everyone with love and comfort. My aunt, the one I have always felt still loves us, even though we made the move to get to where we are today. She is the one who lost her daughter, it was like Pastor Bagwell says, you can always tell who is really saved and at peace with the sitaution and you could so tell.

When we were there my dad gave my auntie some comforting words about how she was up in heaven. She died in her sleep, the hours before her death were as follows, she woke up in the middle of the night gasping for air, when the ambulance came she had little to no heartbeat and they were able to revive her for a short time. She had a heart attack that early morning, that afternoon another heart attack and a short time late brain dead. A half an hour after that gone with the wind. We found out that later she had quit and given up drinking cold turkey, so in that time, my family and I believe that she had then decided I need to get my life together and given her life back to Jesus. Jesus knowing what she was surrounded by and what she could potentially go back to doing said, "My leigh it's your time, to come with me whole, you gave your life back to me and now we will walk in peace together" having that comfort to share with my cousins who lost their sister is a peaceful heartfelt time.

I love my family despite what they have or have not done. We are still a part of his generation and I love them like Jesus loves them. I won't let the past get in the way. The toughest thing about this is celebrating my 22nd birthday. I will still celebrate and be joyous of what is to come but, I don't want anyone to think I'm cold hearted either. Praisin him in this strange place, and still having his comfort with me.


I want to ask one thing, Prayer.
Not just for my family in this time of grief
but this time where we need strength to get us
through this rough patch of awkward family.
We need to go into the services knowing what to say
how to say it, and not make this a big deal where the
5 Luceros have come.
We need strength that if something arises we can back away and leave
and not make a scene of what a life we will celebrate, what a great decision
Leigh made for her life, and her sons and daughter, and her grandbabies.


Peacefully Praying

Think, Think, Think...Like Winnie The Pooh

Ever been completely annoyed with the way people use their lives for worthless elements that really don't help them get anywhere fast?

Ever wanted to walk up to someone and slap them because they're so rude they need an awakening to how their cocky life-style will get them in trouble one day?

Ever wonder what girls think and then think wow I am so glad I don't live life like they do?

Ever think, "If I could be a guy for just one day...what would I do with my time?"

Ever sit and ponder, "wow when I am done with school I'll be here, here, and there?"

Ever swing on a swing envisioning the future with that one special someone that is your other half, your better half, the one that evens you out in all things humanly possible?

Ever look at your stomach and think, "One day I'm going to have a baby, or two, or three, or in my case four, growing in my tummy that I will have to take care of??"

                                                                  

Ever think, "One day Jesus will come...will I be ready, will I be prepared to tell him everything I did and everything I have done and he will be the one left to judge?"

I have...

         ......I have thought of these things more often now than ever before.....

I sit and think and wonder and then I pray and I let all those thoughts be released to Jesus because one day, some day, my time will come and I will know what it feels like to have answers......

........answers to 90% of those questions......

             .....the biggest thing is......

    ..........I know, "I am who God says I am" and I will be triumphant in everything I do.

                       .............I am blessed............

                                      .........I am thankful........                            

Peacefully Pondering,

ME

I've got this feeling, down deep in my soul!

*Beauty*

A happy Hallelujah to ya! Oh man have I been in a mood lately! I'm not sure what's going to happen but, it's so going to happen! I have been on such a roller coaster with life and it has felt like a whirlwind of crazy lazy hyper radical days! First off a lot of these crazy symptoms have come because of my little friend named PAIN P.ms A.ttack I.n N.o great timing at all! :( I become a big cry baby so I've had a few episodes....plus I'm all alone now and I discovered two other things I don't have....1)Heating pad 2) Ibuprofen WORST feeling ever. Anyway I think I need a comfort item in my new place like a teddy bear that's medium sized that would fit perfectly with my body so he could be my pillow and cuddle buddy.

Sorry for that random comment ha ha. Anyways, I love this song and I blasted it super loud and did my this is my house and no one is going to judge me while I sing at the top of my lungs or at my hideous dancing! :) Here I'll share....
So anyway I change the words to "at 21 years of age I have found my dream, the wars still waged for my destiny....he's already won the battle and has great plans for meeeaayyyy" and continue on :)

Here I sit waiting for this person to txt me back....I LOVE making new friends....I love talking for hours and hours at a time...until it's a boy and he gets the wrong impression....I dislike when friendships become about whether you like me or not and then we can't talk if you don't like me back :( I believe you need to be friends with someone before you get remotely serious on wanting to date...you get to know a person that way and it helps to have a close friend that you can tell anything to....I think it later may lead to strong communication if there is a relationship formed.  On to relationships topic....I have a list of things I desire in my husband to be...I have written letters to him and then later ripped them up...I have dreamt about him once and I saw his image but not his face...and I never found out his name :( I do know there was an "E" when I did try and get his name out....

~*Who Wouldn't Love This Moment Really*~

(No I don't really know if it was a dream about my guy but it was so realistic I couldn't imagine why it couldn't be him) and So with this list I have set aside things I would like to accomplish with my husband....things to discuss...I once made a wedding scrapbook and I know that stuff too....it's weird how girls think of these things and guys don't ha ha....well most don't. I just know that when my love life starts I will so be ready! :) I know I am just steps closer to that time in my life and I cannot wait!

L.O.V.E.

what an awesome thing it is

what a powerful

humorous

growing

nurturing

fragile

shiny

glamorous beautiful thing it is

Awwww I scream just thinking of the thoughts of love and compassion and heart.

The way we'll hold each other, kiss each other, play together,

BE TOGETHER

POWERFUL!

Okay I'm done I got a little lost in the future :)

Lovingly Yours,

ME

SomeWhere Over the RainBow #1625

I have reached what seems to look like the end of a rainbow. I am in my new place on a Friday night, I just finished cleaning the place, which didn't take long at all if I do say so myself.
So now I am about to start my letters to a few certain girls to share to them what I have seen and how much I love'em!

Sitting here in my new place is one that I am embracing right now, as Pastor Bagwell says, this memory is definitely a miracle and this miracle is defnitely one that I have written hardcore down in my brain, it's also in my checkbook with the memo titled #1625.

What is this significant number on the check, my first rent check! Not only the first but, the first of many to clear because God has provided me with this lovely job and apartment and I am in the position to say I am THANKFUL for all I have gone through! From living in an old church prayer room, to a trailer, and so many more places to be thankful for each miraculous memory God has placed in my memory! I also cooked my first meal at my new place, it was a struggle lemme tell ya! It wasn't because I can't cook ;) it was because of all things to forget I neglected to buy a can opener!! CHA tell me about it, I was saddened to say the least and now here's what I ended up using, a flathead screwdriver and hammer....here were the results that got my chili into the pan :) Yep I made those marks with my temporary can opener....is it odd I have all these pink girly tools around my new place and new can opener...I thought so too! Thus I am buying a new can opener so this does not happen again :)

Summer is here and I am ready to make some new memories....I have even decided to start my working out.....it will give me something to do when I am lonely and do not know what to do :) I am way excited about my new adventure....especially if there are more flathead screw driver and hammer moments!

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Movin' on out!

It's official move out day is next Tuesday! I'm kinda freaking out right now, I won't have my parents there, my sister's won't be there, my puppies won't be there....for at least two months!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


I am painting the first three weeks and then moving everything in, so I guess that's really when I'll stay there....after painting maybe?!? I haven't decided yet, I am just way excited to have people come over and help me paint!


Cherry red bathroom with red, white, and black accents! So excited!
Minty colored bedroom with yellows, and mild blues! With my pink cheetah blanket!
Purple accents in the kitchen and living room!! Yay


I am way excited to have a house warming party!! I can't wait until the place is official show off worthy! I am beyond excited for that party!


I am so blessed to have the people in my life that I do, people want to give me things, take me out to buy things and I didn't even ask for it! I feel so honored that they would want to do this for me! I will try not to cry!


~As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord!
     

Here I am worshipping you-ooooo

Geography

So here I am sitting in Geography class taking notes on the el laptop (it's literally on my lap right now) :) I am sitting here bored and in pain (because I am sitting in this awful chair) thinking and pondering of the juicy orange I will eat when I get home!!


I am also sitting here thinking what is Brittany thinking and I wonder what Nathaniel is thinking while he is in his class two doors down from me :)


Then I am thinking about my Great news I was going to tell everyone......here it is


 I got to speak at the lovely ladies day of excellence at church....not only that but in the Fashion class as one of the teachers. WOW big boost to my confidence.


              Why big boost well HELLO Teri asked me to help her out in the fashion class meaning she thinks I have great fashion which made me excited cause she dresses so nice and it was great to see she thinks I have great fashion sense too (wooohooo me) :)

Fashion

So she asks me please talk about inner beauty...."because you know that anyone can have nice clothes but it takes a real woman to actually be BEAUTIFUL"


So I immediately start praying God please show me what to say, what to share, and how to get my view out to the women I will be speaking to.


I don't even start to think about the older women I will be pouring into until after I start my message. Believe me it is a huge thing to be able to talk for 10 minutes to a room of women who are really taking in what I am saying.


So I get my material ready and I am oober stoked to share it with Teri in our meeting, well we couldn't have our meeting because of our schedules and so I emailed her my outline.


As I emailed her she asks if I could call her because we couldn't meet, so I'm like oh gee it's a horrible outline and I am not conveying my thoughts well.....awww nuts....so I call her as I am on my way home from work and she says, "Well I really liked all of what you wrote...I liked it so much that I said to myself Wow Chantella needs to speak more often"


WOOOW that was awesome news to hear as well. I was so excited that prayers were getting answered and that I could do so much in such a short amount of time it seemed. So I am so excited for the event...bummed I couldn't wear my awesome pink leopard/zebra converse but so excited that I am a teacher for this event....my name was on the pamphlet and everything that was pretty awesome.




Prayer

 So I keep praying God please help me to convey what I am trying to say to these women....please help my nerves to be calm and let me make an impact on somebody.....even though it was fashion let my words come out powerful..


The first class gets into the room....YIKES such harsh stares from the older women in the group and yet it's the end of the day so it's explainable why they are not in happy moods but gee whiz talk about scary....so to me (being the worst critic) I was so nervous that I felt like I couldn't even swallow and all my saliva was about to come pouring out of my mouth (sorry for the visual) and then the class was over...wow that seemed to go by fast. Second group is here and I still have that nerve feeling but I was like, "NO SHAKE IT OFF" so I did and WOWZA

Shaking it off

I did so much better during the second one, I was really able to get my point across and I was so Excited that it came out and I made them laugh which was even better and some of the women looked like they were going to cry (mainly the ones who are usually the ones teaching me) it was awesome to see how proud they were of me and where I have come and what is still to come. !! :)


Wow one awesome blessing and I cannot wait to do so much more I LOVE it.

Teacha Teach :)

This is my outline of what I spoke on~
I want to first start off with the scripture



*Proverbs 19:22 The first line (NLT version) "Loyalty makes a person attractive"


I will then talk about how honor, integrity, obedience, reliability, and trustworthiness are all synonyms for loyalty and how all of these characteristics make a woman abundantly attractive.
I then want to go into the story of Rebekah becoming Issac's wife. Genesis 24: 13-20 (a few verses to make the point more clear)


*I'll read through 13-20 and then talk about how Rebekah was loyal even when she thought it was nothing other than getting water for Issac and his camels.
*Then Colossians 4:5 "Live wisely among those who are not believers and make the most of every opportunity"
*I will then tie each of those to the acronym~LOYALTY


L~Let


O~Only


Y~Your


A~Attitude


*Like Rebekah she immediately was willing to drop her water jug to offer water. She didn't say to Issac, "HA go get it yourself she sacrificed and said, "here I will even give your camels water" Not just a sip of water but she gave them water until they were not thirsty anymore.


~Make sure that you are not just dressing nice and pretty but you are acting that way too, through your attitude (when people are looking and when they are not) Make sure your loyalty to the house is reflecting your beauty.


~When you are asked to do something do it with loyalty and grace, make sure your integrity is keeping up with your attitude. As ladies we can easily see through people and when people look at you and see you make sure they are seeing the great things you are, your willingness to do things for the house.


L~Love


T~The


Y~Yada (I'll explain Yada is praise in motion, "The act of lifting hands")


~My mom always told me "no matter where you are always remember to keep the house of God is cleaner then when you first got there" By that she meant no matter how messy someone left it before you got there it is your LOYALTY to the house to make sure his house is clean. The world is God's house and to me that means even if no one is looking at what I may be doing if I see a piece of trash on the floor that at least 100 people have walked over I make sure to pick it up and throw it away.

Bible love=Electrifying

~Even while in service with the announcement flyer don't just leave yours on the seat because "It's the ushers job to clean it up, they volunteer to clean up" no make sure that your beauty is showing through your actions.


~The act of lifting your hands with love make sure that when you are willing to do things for anywhere in this world you are doing it as an act of love to Jesus, whether it's preparing a presentation, handing someone a plate of food, taking care of children, designing/decorating a house make sure that you are YADA-ING praising him even when others may be doing wrong because HE sees what you are doing and he is the only one that ultimately matters.
**In the end let only your attitude love the yada! because praising and lifting your hands for him and letting your beauty SHINE through the work and time you put in will reflect your beauty because God doesn't want a lazy LIONESS he wants one with a GROWL who knows what she's doing!