I've got this feeling, down deep in my soul!

*Beauty*

A happy Hallelujah to ya! Oh man have I been in a mood lately! I'm not sure what's going to happen but, it's so going to happen! I have been on such a roller coaster with life and it has felt like a whirlwind of crazy lazy hyper radical days! First off a lot of these crazy symptoms have come because of my little friend named PAIN P.ms A.ttack I.n N.o great timing at all! :( I become a big cry baby so I've had a few episodes....plus I'm all alone now and I discovered two other things I don't have....1)Heating pad 2) Ibuprofen WORST feeling ever. Anyway I think I need a comfort item in my new place like a teddy bear that's medium sized that would fit perfectly with my body so he could be my pillow and cuddle buddy.

Sorry for that random comment ha ha. Anyways, I love this song and I blasted it super loud and did my this is my house and no one is going to judge me while I sing at the top of my lungs or at my hideous dancing! :) Here I'll share....
So anyway I change the words to "at 21 years of age I have found my dream, the wars still waged for my destiny....he's already won the battle and has great plans for meeeaayyyy" and continue on :)

Here I sit waiting for this person to txt me back....I LOVE making new friends....I love talking for hours and hours at a time...until it's a boy and he gets the wrong impression....I dislike when friendships become about whether you like me or not and then we can't talk if you don't like me back :( I believe you need to be friends with someone before you get remotely serious on wanting to date...you get to know a person that way and it helps to have a close friend that you can tell anything to....I think it later may lead to strong communication if there is a relationship formed.  On to relationships topic....I have a list of things I desire in my husband to be...I have written letters to him and then later ripped them up...I have dreamt about him once and I saw his image but not his face...and I never found out his name :( I do know there was an "E" when I did try and get his name out....

~*Who Wouldn't Love This Moment Really*~

(No I don't really know if it was a dream about my guy but it was so realistic I couldn't imagine why it couldn't be him) and So with this list I have set aside things I would like to accomplish with my husband....things to discuss...I once made a wedding scrapbook and I know that stuff too....it's weird how girls think of these things and guys don't ha ha....well most don't. I just know that when my love life starts I will so be ready! :) I know I am just steps closer to that time in my life and I cannot wait!

L.O.V.E.

what an awesome thing it is

what a powerful

humorous

growing

nurturing

fragile

shiny

glamorous beautiful thing it is

Awwww I scream just thinking of the thoughts of love and compassion and heart.

The way we'll hold each other, kiss each other, play together,

BE TOGETHER

POWERFUL!

Okay I'm done I got a little lost in the future :)

Lovingly Yours,

ME

SomeWhere Over the RainBow #1625

I have reached what seems to look like the end of a rainbow. I am in my new place on a Friday night, I just finished cleaning the place, which didn't take long at all if I do say so myself.
So now I am about to start my letters to a few certain girls to share to them what I have seen and how much I love'em!

Sitting here in my new place is one that I am embracing right now, as Pastor Bagwell says, this memory is definitely a miracle and this miracle is defnitely one that I have written hardcore down in my brain, it's also in my checkbook with the memo titled #1625.

What is this significant number on the check, my first rent check! Not only the first but, the first of many to clear because God has provided me with this lovely job and apartment and I am in the position to say I am THANKFUL for all I have gone through! From living in an old church prayer room, to a trailer, and so many more places to be thankful for each miraculous memory God has placed in my memory! I also cooked my first meal at my new place, it was a struggle lemme tell ya! It wasn't because I can't cook ;) it was because of all things to forget I neglected to buy a can opener!! CHA tell me about it, I was saddened to say the least and now here's what I ended up using, a flathead screwdriver and hammer....here were the results that got my chili into the pan :) Yep I made those marks with my temporary can opener....is it odd I have all these pink girly tools around my new place and new can opener...I thought so too! Thus I am buying a new can opener so this does not happen again :)

Summer is here and I am ready to make some new memories....I have even decided to start my working out.....it will give me something to do when I am lonely and do not know what to do :) I am way excited about my new adventure....especially if there are more flathead screw driver and hammer moments!

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