Fulfillment

This post will be saved for a future topic that is going to come tonight. I must get my thoughts together but finally I have something to write.

Chantella

Peacefully Praying

I just have a few thoughts running through my head that I did not want to share with FB.

My cousin passed away yesterday...we went to the hospital and the coroner came and picked her up. How on earth do you react to a situation when you know everything is alright.

I feel like my body is numb with emotion. I am emotionless because we don't talk with the family. First off we left "The Church" my Uncle Pastored when I was like maybe 10 or 12 we pretty much I feel got shunned from the "Family" so when we went to the hospital I was expecting a freak out of, "why are you here you're not a part of the family" sort of thing. luckily that did not happen. We embraced everyone and hugged everyone with love and comfort. My aunt, the one I have always felt still loves us, even though we made the move to get to where we are today. She is the one who lost her daughter, it was like Pastor Bagwell says, you can always tell who is really saved and at peace with the sitaution and you could so tell.

When we were there my dad gave my auntie some comforting words about how she was up in heaven. She died in her sleep, the hours before her death were as follows, she woke up in the middle of the night gasping for air, when the ambulance came she had little to no heartbeat and they were able to revive her for a short time. She had a heart attack that early morning, that afternoon another heart attack and a short time late brain dead. A half an hour after that gone with the wind. We found out that later she had quit and given up drinking cold turkey, so in that time, my family and I believe that she had then decided I need to get my life together and given her life back to Jesus. Jesus knowing what she was surrounded by and what she could potentially go back to doing said, "My leigh it's your time, to come with me whole, you gave your life back to me and now we will walk in peace together" having that comfort to share with my cousins who lost their sister is a peaceful heartfelt time.

I love my family despite what they have or have not done. We are still a part of his generation and I love them like Jesus loves them. I won't let the past get in the way. The toughest thing about this is celebrating my 22nd birthday. I will still celebrate and be joyous of what is to come but, I don't want anyone to think I'm cold hearted either. Praisin him in this strange place, and still having his comfort with me.


I want to ask one thing, Prayer.
Not just for my family in this time of grief
but this time where we need strength to get us
through this rough patch of awkward family.
We need to go into the services knowing what to say
how to say it, and not make this a big deal where the
5 Luceros have come.
We need strength that if something arises we can back away and leave
and not make a scene of what a life we will celebrate, what a great decision
Leigh made for her life, and her sons and daughter, and her grandbabies.


Peacefully Praying

Think, Think, Think...Like Winnie The Pooh

Ever been completely annoyed with the way people use their lives for worthless elements that really don't help them get anywhere fast?

Ever wanted to walk up to someone and slap them because they're so rude they need an awakening to how their cocky life-style will get them in trouble one day?

Ever wonder what girls think and then think wow I am so glad I don't live life like they do?

Ever think, "If I could be a guy for just one day...what would I do with my time?"

Ever sit and ponder, "wow when I am done with school I'll be here, here, and there?"

Ever swing on a swing envisioning the future with that one special someone that is your other half, your better half, the one that evens you out in all things humanly possible?

Ever look at your stomach and think, "One day I'm going to have a baby, or two, or three, or in my case four, growing in my tummy that I will have to take care of??"

                                                                  

Ever think, "One day Jesus will come...will I be ready, will I be prepared to tell him everything I did and everything I have done and he will be the one left to judge?"

I have...

         ......I have thought of these things more often now than ever before.....

I sit and think and wonder and then I pray and I let all those thoughts be released to Jesus because one day, some day, my time will come and I will know what it feels like to have answers......

........answers to 90% of those questions......

             .....the biggest thing is......

    ..........I know, "I am who God says I am" and I will be triumphant in everything I do.

                       .............I am blessed............

                                      .........I am thankful........                            

Peacefully Pondering,

ME

I've got this feeling, down deep in my soul!

*Beauty*

A happy Hallelujah to ya! Oh man have I been in a mood lately! I'm not sure what's going to happen but, it's so going to happen! I have been on such a roller coaster with life and it has felt like a whirlwind of crazy lazy hyper radical days! First off a lot of these crazy symptoms have come because of my little friend named PAIN P.ms A.ttack I.n N.o great timing at all! :( I become a big cry baby so I've had a few episodes....plus I'm all alone now and I discovered two other things I don't have....1)Heating pad 2) Ibuprofen WORST feeling ever. Anyway I think I need a comfort item in my new place like a teddy bear that's medium sized that would fit perfectly with my body so he could be my pillow and cuddle buddy.

Sorry for that random comment ha ha. Anyways, I love this song and I blasted it super loud and did my this is my house and no one is going to judge me while I sing at the top of my lungs or at my hideous dancing! :) Here I'll share....
So anyway I change the words to "at 21 years of age I have found my dream, the wars still waged for my destiny....he's already won the battle and has great plans for meeeaayyyy" and continue on :)

Here I sit waiting for this person to txt me back....I LOVE making new friends....I love talking for hours and hours at a time...until it's a boy and he gets the wrong impression....I dislike when friendships become about whether you like me or not and then we can't talk if you don't like me back :( I believe you need to be friends with someone before you get remotely serious on wanting to date...you get to know a person that way and it helps to have a close friend that you can tell anything to....I think it later may lead to strong communication if there is a relationship formed.  On to relationships topic....I have a list of things I desire in my husband to be...I have written letters to him and then later ripped them up...I have dreamt about him once and I saw his image but not his face...and I never found out his name :( I do know there was an "E" when I did try and get his name out....

~*Who Wouldn't Love This Moment Really*~

(No I don't really know if it was a dream about my guy but it was so realistic I couldn't imagine why it couldn't be him) and So with this list I have set aside things I would like to accomplish with my husband....things to discuss...I once made a wedding scrapbook and I know that stuff too....it's weird how girls think of these things and guys don't ha ha....well most don't. I just know that when my love life starts I will so be ready! :) I know I am just steps closer to that time in my life and I cannot wait!

L.O.V.E.

what an awesome thing it is

what a powerful

humorous

growing

nurturing

fragile

shiny

glamorous beautiful thing it is

Awwww I scream just thinking of the thoughts of love and compassion and heart.

The way we'll hold each other, kiss each other, play together,

BE TOGETHER

POWERFUL!

Okay I'm done I got a little lost in the future :)

Lovingly Yours,

ME

SomeWhere Over the RainBow #1625

I have reached what seems to look like the end of a rainbow. I am in my new place on a Friday night, I just finished cleaning the place, which didn't take long at all if I do say so myself.
So now I am about to start my letters to a few certain girls to share to them what I have seen and how much I love'em!

Sitting here in my new place is one that I am embracing right now, as Pastor Bagwell says, this memory is definitely a miracle and this miracle is defnitely one that I have written hardcore down in my brain, it's also in my checkbook with the memo titled #1625.

What is this significant number on the check, my first rent check! Not only the first but, the first of many to clear because God has provided me with this lovely job and apartment and I am in the position to say I am THANKFUL for all I have gone through! From living in an old church prayer room, to a trailer, and so many more places to be thankful for each miraculous memory God has placed in my memory! I also cooked my first meal at my new place, it was a struggle lemme tell ya! It wasn't because I can't cook ;) it was because of all things to forget I neglected to buy a can opener!! CHA tell me about it, I was saddened to say the least and now here's what I ended up using, a flathead screwdriver and hammer....here were the results that got my chili into the pan :) Yep I made those marks with my temporary can opener....is it odd I have all these pink girly tools around my new place and new can opener...I thought so too! Thus I am buying a new can opener so this does not happen again :)

Summer is here and I am ready to make some new memories....I have even decided to start my working out.....it will give me something to do when I am lonely and do not know what to do :) I am way excited about my new adventure....especially if there are more flathead screw driver and hammer moments!

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Movin' on out!

It's official move out day is next Tuesday! I'm kinda freaking out right now, I won't have my parents there, my sister's won't be there, my puppies won't be there....for at least two months!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


I am painting the first three weeks and then moving everything in, so I guess that's really when I'll stay there....after painting maybe?!? I haven't decided yet, I am just way excited to have people come over and help me paint!


Cherry red bathroom with red, white, and black accents! So excited!
Minty colored bedroom with yellows, and mild blues! With my pink cheetah blanket!
Purple accents in the kitchen and living room!! Yay


I am way excited to have a house warming party!! I can't wait until the place is official show off worthy! I am beyond excited for that party!


I am so blessed to have the people in my life that I do, people want to give me things, take me out to buy things and I didn't even ask for it! I feel so honored that they would want to do this for me! I will try not to cry!


~As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord!
     

Here I am worshipping you-ooooo

Geography

So here I am sitting in Geography class taking notes on the el laptop (it's literally on my lap right now) :) I am sitting here bored and in pain (because I am sitting in this awful chair) thinking and pondering of the juicy orange I will eat when I get home!!


I am also sitting here thinking what is Brittany thinking and I wonder what Nathaniel is thinking while he is in his class two doors down from me :)


Then I am thinking about my Great news I was going to tell everyone......here it is


 I got to speak at the lovely ladies day of excellence at church....not only that but in the Fashion class as one of the teachers. WOW big boost to my confidence.


              Why big boost well HELLO Teri asked me to help her out in the fashion class meaning she thinks I have great fashion which made me excited cause she dresses so nice and it was great to see she thinks I have great fashion sense too (wooohooo me) :)

Fashion

So she asks me please talk about inner beauty...."because you know that anyone can have nice clothes but it takes a real woman to actually be BEAUTIFUL"


So I immediately start praying God please show me what to say, what to share, and how to get my view out to the women I will be speaking to.


I don't even start to think about the older women I will be pouring into until after I start my message. Believe me it is a huge thing to be able to talk for 10 minutes to a room of women who are really taking in what I am saying.


So I get my material ready and I am oober stoked to share it with Teri in our meeting, well we couldn't have our meeting because of our schedules and so I emailed her my outline.


As I emailed her she asks if I could call her because we couldn't meet, so I'm like oh gee it's a horrible outline and I am not conveying my thoughts well.....awww nuts....so I call her as I am on my way home from work and she says, "Well I really liked all of what you wrote...I liked it so much that I said to myself Wow Chantella needs to speak more often"


WOOOW that was awesome news to hear as well. I was so excited that prayers were getting answered and that I could do so much in such a short amount of time it seemed. So I am so excited for the event...bummed I couldn't wear my awesome pink leopard/zebra converse but so excited that I am a teacher for this event....my name was on the pamphlet and everything that was pretty awesome.




Prayer

 So I keep praying God please help me to convey what I am trying to say to these women....please help my nerves to be calm and let me make an impact on somebody.....even though it was fashion let my words come out powerful..


The first class gets into the room....YIKES such harsh stares from the older women in the group and yet it's the end of the day so it's explainable why they are not in happy moods but gee whiz talk about scary....so to me (being the worst critic) I was so nervous that I felt like I couldn't even swallow and all my saliva was about to come pouring out of my mouth (sorry for the visual) and then the class was over...wow that seemed to go by fast. Second group is here and I still have that nerve feeling but I was like, "NO SHAKE IT OFF" so I did and WOWZA

Shaking it off

I did so much better during the second one, I was really able to get my point across and I was so Excited that it came out and I made them laugh which was even better and some of the women looked like they were going to cry (mainly the ones who are usually the ones teaching me) it was awesome to see how proud they were of me and where I have come and what is still to come. !! :)


Wow one awesome blessing and I cannot wait to do so much more I LOVE it.

Teacha Teach :)

This is my outline of what I spoke on~
I want to first start off with the scripture



*Proverbs 19:22 The first line (NLT version) "Loyalty makes a person attractive"


I will then talk about how honor, integrity, obedience, reliability, and trustworthiness are all synonyms for loyalty and how all of these characteristics make a woman abundantly attractive.
I then want to go into the story of Rebekah becoming Issac's wife. Genesis 24: 13-20 (a few verses to make the point more clear)


*I'll read through 13-20 and then talk about how Rebekah was loyal even when she thought it was nothing other than getting water for Issac and his camels.
*Then Colossians 4:5 "Live wisely among those who are not believers and make the most of every opportunity"
*I will then tie each of those to the acronym~LOYALTY


L~Let


O~Only


Y~Your


A~Attitude


*Like Rebekah she immediately was willing to drop her water jug to offer water. She didn't say to Issac, "HA go get it yourself she sacrificed and said, "here I will even give your camels water" Not just a sip of water but she gave them water until they were not thirsty anymore.


~Make sure that you are not just dressing nice and pretty but you are acting that way too, through your attitude (when people are looking and when they are not) Make sure your loyalty to the house is reflecting your beauty.


~When you are asked to do something do it with loyalty and grace, make sure your integrity is keeping up with your attitude. As ladies we can easily see through people and when people look at you and see you make sure they are seeing the great things you are, your willingness to do things for the house.


L~Love


T~The


Y~Yada (I'll explain Yada is praise in motion, "The act of lifting hands")


~My mom always told me "no matter where you are always remember to keep the house of God is cleaner then when you first got there" By that she meant no matter how messy someone left it before you got there it is your LOYALTY to the house to make sure his house is clean. The world is God's house and to me that means even if no one is looking at what I may be doing if I see a piece of trash on the floor that at least 100 people have walked over I make sure to pick it up and throw it away.

Bible love=Electrifying

~Even while in service with the announcement flyer don't just leave yours on the seat because "It's the ushers job to clean it up, they volunteer to clean up" no make sure that your beauty is showing through your actions.


~The act of lifting your hands with love make sure that when you are willing to do things for anywhere in this world you are doing it as an act of love to Jesus, whether it's preparing a presentation, handing someone a plate of food, taking care of children, designing/decorating a house make sure that you are YADA-ING praising him even when others may be doing wrong because HE sees what you are doing and he is the only one that ultimately matters.
**In the end let only your attitude love the yada! because praising and lifting your hands for him and letting your beauty SHINE through the work and time you put in will reflect your beauty because God doesn't want a lazy LIONESS he wants one with a GROWL who knows what she's doing!

Beauty from Pain

It's so funny when you can be so high on life that something has to tear it down....you can't have beauty without that pain is what immediately came to mind when I thought that first thought up there. Gosh I had so much to praise praise and thank god for that I know I am not excempt from trail and tribulations but one thing tore it down.

So I've been listening to my prophetic word over and over again to re-energize myself and to get myself together because I was not going to let that one thing tear me down. So another part of my word was, "I am going to put you into a cycle of blessing and it will layer itself upon layers and layers of blessing" WOW right?!? "it will not be excempt from battle or pressure but if you daily ask for help making discerning decisions" that blessing will come to pass....I feel like everyday I've asked for help with this I have been a lot more calm (esp at work with 15 other women (ughhh sometimes x10)) and I have truly sought him out. Now more than ever I am having to ask him "Lord please help me hold my tongue" cause Gal I wanna go off sometimes. Another part of my word, "you are young and tender before me and time after time you have asked yourself God why did they CHOSE to do that, WHY did they not go the other way, my daughter I say to you, you will NEVER be like that, you WILL (like you have) always know the right decisions to make, you WILL NOT have to ask yourself, WHY" awww what a nice relaxing way to end this lil post...I feel like that was my let out....I don't and WILL NOT be one to ask myself WHY but I will know that I am making the right decisions because I am asking for HIS help....ahhhh THANK YOU JESUS!!

This song just popped up...."after all this has past I still will remain"

THE end.

Blessed

Soooo I have some very good news but I want to keep it a secret until it happens. I am seeing my word come to pass in ways I only dreamt about! I am going to tell you what this is in about two weeks.....after the 26th or on the 26th depending on how tired I am afterwards!! Ahhhhh I really just want it to be a shock surprise so I am trying to bite my tongue not to give too much away. Why am I even telling you the little I have?!? Well because telling that much is making it easier to keep this secret inside me contained ;) Well that is all I would like to say right now I just had to spill somethin


Farewell to all.
Waiting patiently :)

P.S. I think I am amazing! :)



Imagine bigger and more cozy pillows :)

 Oh Yes I am amazing! I am in awe of the person God has made me to be! Since I am moving out n' stuff within the next couple months my family is starting to get hit hard by it...they're getting worried we'll never see each other....like I am going to abandon the family or something.


Me abandon the family NO WAY!! My family and I do EVERYTHING together....like no joke all the time. We go grocery shopping together on the weekends and I love it! (I'm pretty sure they love it too) my mom always jokes around that she's going to leave my sisters and me at home because we're so comfortable in the store sometimes we mini wrestle (even with my dad). A couple of times I have sat in the middle of an aisle because I needed a break, or Shell Shell has tickled/twisted my arm and I have spasmed out and fallen on the floor. :) Then there's Ria who we often pick on for her shortyness (my word yep) and then Re-Re gets mad quickly so we upset her :) Then sissors and I like to venture off on our lonesome to look at make-up, clothes (wal-mart), jewelry, and many other things. Sometimes if my mom is at the store to long we venture off to the mall or Kohls. :) It's a great weekend tradition we always have had.


I think when I move out I'm going to tell my parent's that I still want to go grocery shopping with them on the weekends! Yes, Yes, I will tell them that tomorrow!! :) We're also going to have a "Friday night dinner" thing where I come over to eat or they come to my place (like on Gilmore Girls (Greatest show ever PS))




Lorelai and Rory=Great memories!


Another thing I will do when I move out I have decided to not have a dining room table with giant chairs. I hate sitting in chairs. They're hard and stiff and uncomfortable to me, I like COZY! So here's what I am going to do....I'm going oriental style....a mini table with giant pillows or bean bags to sit on at dinner time! :) Being that my momma has an artificial leg I will have to set up something so it's easier for her or she'll prolly take off her leg or somethin' :)


Shell's worried she'll never be able to ask me if I want a Jolly Rancher again, She's also said, "But Tella you can't move...I'm not done wearing your clothes yet" Hahaha Oh sissor shell you is crazy!


Ria's excited to have a whole clean house...I'm prolly the messiest out of the three....clothes everywhere....shoes everywhere....sometimes a heel goes in my foot :( and still I like things sprawled out not confined hahaha!


Ria is also worried my baby Minnie Pearl is going to die of sadness :( I think she'll be super excited to get lots of attention and she won't get picked on by Skyler...she'll be content with me uuuh-huhhh! :)




My room=a little worse :)

 Daddy, he's scared he's loosin his baby (me in case you didn't catch that ;p) he knows I can do it, and that I will be fine he's just daddy worried and I love that....there's gonna be many tears shed the first couple nights I am alone I am sure but, I know the plans God is leading me to and so does Daddy, which makes the experience that much more pleasure then sadness! LOVE MA DADDY!!


So, in the end moving time is approaching, the family is trying to get the idea wrapped around their minds and I...I am ready for this monumental occasion!

This darn zit

Ohh yeahhhh!!

Zit, so here we go first off I named it this because I sadly have three zits on my chin....there not spread out they're all in one direct spot so it looks like I have a huge bubble on my chin on the left side :( I am sad and I hope they go away.....these are random popped up ones because I rarely get zits nowadays which makes it more worse.



The pretty place I will move to in Parker!

 So other than my own personal zits as I sat here pondering why I would be having this issue and then I thought hey we all have zits in here in our life....both physically and with the people around us. Yes people! I was thinking about the people zits in my life and the ones that ERK me....there isn't a lot but a select few that I can count on my finger that really are pop worthy!! Buuuuttt that's all I am saying about that because I want to talk about growin up!

Yes, I am! Me who cares everyone has their zits and you get over them by the amazing great things and people you do have.

I am spacey when writing but who cares I do not have to be grammatically correct it's my thing :)
I have officially moved up my moving out date....I will officially have my own Apt by May!! YAYYYY So I have been saving my money like crazy for the deposit and the application fee and the furniture I will buy and holy moly it has been hard but it will be so worth it in the end....on top of that I will be finishing school for my teaching degree NEXT YEAR....life is so great! I am so excited!

Right now I am seeing how the experience will be by myself because right now I am doing a weekend babysitting with a few of my favorite kids that I babysit for. I'm not by myself obviously but the kids are asleep and I am upstairs doing hw (oh ps this is my break haha). The kids are in their rooms right next to me and I am watching FRIENDS. In my head this is what my life will be like with my new place.....late hw nights, TV, and snuggling with my Minnie Pearl, cooking my own food (which I do for the whole family anyway), and just me. Me and quiet time, that's what I am so excited for.

One of the greatest shows ever!

Okay so there's my rant and now I am done. I will now start my HW time again. Probably some FB too....and snack

Goodnight,
Tay

Jesus is_____

The Mix!! Gosh I LOVE it! I feel like right when I felt like Gal I'm not a leader in Pulse anymore, I just attend main service! Now don't get me wrong I love it down there, I have gained so much about where I need to be but just being in main service to me is not acceptable! I want to do more than just get the great word, I want to serve and witness to SOMEONE! So then The Mix started...holy wowzah! With the last couple of meetings I have grasped so much it sends tingles and shivers down my body. So we got this challenge a couple weeks ago...right around New Years time and here's the message in a nutshell....



-We A-- had to think of how we would start this new year out right....with a clean slate. Then Pastor Aaron went into further detail.....let's go with people...how can we have a clean slate with people. So then he had this paper passed out and on it it said, "Jesus is______" Pastor Aaron, "Jesus is what to you....to some he's hypocritical to others he's loving, to some he's imaginary, but what is Jesus to you..." The first things that came to mind, loving, forgiving, my lord and savior, awesome, and mighty is he!! He's everlasting and indescribable in a way. So then there's three more sections and they say, "Jesus is giving, Jesus is helpful, and Jesus blesses his enemies" and then in short paragraphs Pastor Aaron asks how can you give to someone in need....how can you help someone in need and think of your enemies and what can you do to bless them."
--He emphasized on time, everyone always says I am so busy I have so much going on in life.....annnnnd so did Jesus so you have to be like him right?!? So then the challenge came....what can you do for the next two weeks (before the next Mix meeting) to give, help, and bless your enemy.


--It was so funny that he said give because I had really wanted to take some time and hang out with a few of my "younger sisters" (I like to add them to the actual younger ones I have) and I spent some time with my Sonia love! I was giving up a Saturday to sleep in so that I could just have chill time with Sonia and hopefully not make it awkward :) (Sonia I hope you're not taking this in a bad way....it's not coming out how I want it to sound) Here this fixes it...I cleared my schedule and made sure to not set anything up that Saturday so that I could focus on Sonia and give her the time, talk, and love she needed. So I gave my time to Sonia so that we could chat and have girl time....Starbucks, Pedicures, A stalker trip to Marshalls ;) then to a movie to see "How do you Know" and then dinner at Chili's where bucket list came into play and we became the restaurant bandits ;) it was a great day to talk about so much and not have a dull moment! I really have been getting pushed to get to know more about my "younger sisters" Sonia, Gabby, and Tanisha! and I do not have to be in Pulse to do so.....to make the Michelle impact I have wanted to make! I LOVE THOSE GIRLS SO MUCH!! They mean the world to me just like my sister's do!!

The next challenge was to help someone in need, who do you know that could use a hand....it doesn't need to be extravagent just something you know will make an impact. So I thought of OH my co-worker....she's a single mom not even knowing where to go and is having a hard time....so I thought bless her with a SHINE magazine!! One that would best fit her needs and let her read it...not force her because there's only so much you can do to help but give her the encouragement she needs.

The harder challenge....blessing your enemies.....we all have them it's no lie....GAL even Pastor Aaron said a little about his. So here's the deal you take or give them something like a Starbucks card and tell them, "Hey God really placed you on my heart and I have really been praying for you this past week and I wanted to just give you a pick me up!" Now if you have enemies and they too know you're not friends ;) watch their reactions they'll be SHOCKED!! Now here's what I ended up doing....While Pastor Aaron was talking he said even just complimenting their outfit that day would be a nice gesture (I literally sat their thinking of who I was going to bless and TWITCHED because this person's outfits are outrageous and I could never say they looked good because I would be lying (hey it's honesty)) So I thought "okay I'll bring them coffee....they're always drinking coffee....now I would do it in person too...not over text, not putting something in their mailbox but going up to them in person showing them I truly was making the effort to bless them...going out of my way to give them something." So the reaction I got, I prayed too I didn't just say God placed them on my heart and not do anything about it but I prayed for them throughout the days of that week. The day came around and here was my opportunity....I was exhausted and I just wanted to sleep but I said "no I have to do this I have to bless them even though it will be weird and not the best time but God sees where I am at" so I got dressed, went to Starbucks got a White Chocolate Mocha, and then went on my way to take it to them...So I saw this person and they were with their male companion and I asked the person, "Do you have a minute?" she said..."Ummm does he need to come to?" "No this will just take a sec" "Ar-Ar-are you sure he doesn't need to be there" "Oh yeah I'm positive it's nothing bad I just want to give you something real quick" "we-we-we-well ummmm can he come please?" (as she is like death gripping his bicep) "Ummm sure (we go to a side hall and as we're walking) "I'm not planning on hitting or fighting you" (she literally had a face that looked like I was going to punch her or something it was quite hysterical). "So I just wanted to bless you with this coffee, God really brought you to mind the past two weeks (we got snowed out the first week I wanted to do this) and I have really been praying for you. I don't know if anything is going on but you just got a lot of extra prayers and I wanted you to have this warm coffee and the blessing from me, so here you go" and she was STUNNED she was SPEECHLESS the words slowly trickled out of her mouth, "ttthhhank youuuuuu?!?!?" and then a hug. Not much said but I totally got the reaction where she truly didn't ever see it coming and that's what I wanted I am not holding grudges and I think she really needed to see that. I haven't really seen this person around much but she later got my number from someone and text me later and said what she couldn't say in person, "wow thanks for the coffee, it was such a great surprise and thank you so much for the prayers"

See so what can you do?!? Can you get a reaction out of one of your greatest enemies like that,.....can you give your time to someone who has been wanting to hang out with you.....can you help someone who is going through a difficult situation?!? Everyone can truly use a great surprise....not just for a holiday but for any random day. Those are the best kinds of gifts you can give....give them to someone when they least expect it! You never know after that day how much you really made an impact in those people's lives!


So I challenge you.....can you GIVE, HELP, and BLESS YOUR ENEMIES?!?

Curious?!?

Sooo to start this off I'm going to go with the award I recieved from Morgan a couple days ago


7 things many people don't know about me:


*I'm allergic to cats and smoke...any kind of smoke (I found out I'm allergic to fire smoke this year at the Parade of Lights) I get wheezy and all red in the eyes and it kinda gets hard to breath like I have a hair caught in my throat.


*I'm moving out in August or October to be on my own without my parents (not because I don't love my parents but because God's really been dealing with me about being a grown up...it's a conversation him and I have had that really goes deep between him and I)


*I HATE the smell of Sweet Pea ANYTHING because that's all I got for like a year straight so the smell makes me want to puke!


*I KNOW not everyone can work with children and it truly takes a SPECIAL GIFT to be able to truly appreciate them through the good the bad and the ugly and if you're doing a child wrong I will tell you and not care what you think of me.


*I truly know some of my destiny and calling of where God wants me and I cannot wait to get there


*I've NEVER EVER EVER had a true girl best friend. Girls and I have never gotten along well enough to become close. Really and truly I open up to God and God alone and I don't have that girl friend bond. I pray God sends me someone to Sharpen me...I want that Iron sharpens Iron friendship!!


*I have big plans for my 22nd birthday because it is my golden birthday!! YAY!


Okay I changed my mind, it's late and I'm gonna crash now!! Goodnight!

My baby....

.....Has the cutest ways.....

.....Of sleeping and I LOVE IT!!

*Today=warm weather!

I just read through Jesseca's blog and liked hers, this one may be just as jumpy. I am starting to write before I head out the door for school. English class with my 1st GUY professor!! YIKES having guy teachers are always on the fence with me because I've had guy teachers that have A-hit on me BLEGH and B-guy teachers that are just plain buttheads and C-a select few that have been a great teacher and I loved how they taught. So after class I'll share about my experience!

Today I am going to share about my LOVELY job....the reason I go to english class and many others. I had to share this photo of the cute little TOMS!! This little girl Lily had them on Wednesday and they made me want TOMS so much because they just looked so cute on her little feet.
      Lily there's a story behind this little mini. Her dad died this summer, she turned 3 a couple days after his death. It's crazy, I go back to the first day I met Lily and her sister, Lauren (who is 5). My director Jennifer came in and introduced me to these two little girls, she told me there were going to be in my summer class and they were both very nervous,....more so Mom Lindsay was nervous about the situation. I didn't know until after I was introduced to these little ones that their daddy had past away. I later found out that he went into surgery to have something removed off(I cannot recall exactly what it was...something in the heart or brain, something major) and there were complications and he didn't make it through. These tiny little things walked into my care and truly I was held responsible for these little ones to make sure they had a great time. I had to make sure to ease mom into being comfortable and making the girls sort of happy while I'm sure everyone else in their world at the moment was mourning and they don't exactly grasp the concept of death quite yet. So I made sure to make this little Lily and Lauren have fun! I did just that! Helped them through their need of summer lovin'. These girls had so much fun and had the cutest smiles, voices, and so many other adorable quirks They came in everyday and sat on my lap or in my chair.


My Lily=Precious and Priceless



Later on that summer as time had past and mom grew more and more comfortable and happy (as happy as you can be after losing a spouse) one day the girls stood for After Care (so when the whole morning summer classes and afternoon classes were over they stood until about 4 or 430 (school ends at 2:50)) they stood with my mom (the after care teacher) well mom came in and the girls were playing in playland and their Mom told my Mom that Lily always tells her mom, "I just love Ms. Chantella! She's my hero!!" Gal I lost it!  When my mom told me that Lily says that I cried and then my mom continued to tell me how much their mom appreciates me and how much I have helped her feel safe with leaving the girls at school so she can get herself better for those girls. I still get teary eyed just thinking about it. (if my typing doesn't make sense it's because of tears streaming down my cheeks). This little thing thinks I'm her hero, now I know God is and was working miracles for that little one through me. I could not be her "Hero" without him helping me. This is why I know my passion, my calling, my ME goes here. God has given me a patience and peaceful heart to be able to do what I do not just for money cause I am definitely not doing it for money but doing it because I can make an impact in little girls and boys lives! "Thank you Jesus for putting me in this field, it is so rewarding and so humbling!"    I was just listening to this on my Pandora radio and GOSH it's a perfect fit....I am so lost without him...he gives me my guidance and direction I need. ".....Daily saith God ask me for the power to make discerning decisions, ask me for the power to chose to do what is right in my sight and I will put you in a cycle of blessing...." that right there is PART of the prophetic word I got on APRIL 25, 2010. WOW almost a year later and I know I am on that path of blessing and I have asked for his power to make any and all decisions....have I fought some YES but in the end I have given in and let go! For this I am GRATEFUL and I have listened to Jesus and I have done what I needed to do.

    One final story, a funny Lily story. Lindsay, Lily and Lauren's mom overheard the two girls arguing back and forth and decided to listen in, and here's what she heard, "I have a boyfriend and I am going to get married to him and you don't have one and you'll never get married!"-Lauren "Yes, yes I will!! You know what I am going to marry Ms.Chantella! Cause she loves me!!"-Lily Now of course it's just a funny story and they don't know that marrying girls is not okay haha but it was SOOOoooo cute to hear that story too! I love that she loves me so much and I love her tiny little body and feet that fit into little TOMS like this!! Beautiful Soul!

Now about school. Class tonight started at 5:30 and ended at 6:05...it's supposed to go until 8:15 but because he had an emergency he let class out early! Which I commend him for even having class because he was attached to his cell phone the moments we did have class so he could keep posted. Overall my first impression was WOW way different then my stick in the butt english teacher from last semester. He tries "to be funny" but he's quirky so I think I'll def have some fun in that class. He's very mellow so I am not nervous too much and I kinda made a class friend. Brittany and I both did....we are not talkers to strangers but I think because of how the teacher approached the class the rest of us felt at ease. All my nerves are calmed for this semester even though I have 5 classes and am working. I always work myself up only to know that I truly have it under control again because JESUS IS SO AWESOME! I'll have the strength to have those late nights (which I'm sure they'll come) and those early mornings (which happens OFTEN) but I am excited!!


Starbucks and Goldfish so I didn't get jittery during
the morning haha :)




The snow that fell last night
while I was babysitting
Collier and Kira
(6 and 7)

 Ps. I also had to share what AWESOME parents I have (not my mom and dad) but my students parents. Today it was cold when I did carpool and there was snow on the ground!  I woke up not wanting to get out of my blankets and when I got to work I didn't even want to take of my coat! Little did I know what I would be so thankful for! One of my parents of twins (Tanner and Allison 3 years old) would forget to bring shoes with her kids (they don't wear shoes in the car apparently, funny but understandable, less messy).   So Shannon (mom) went back home to grab their shoes.....she came back.....then she turned to us and said, "these are for you guys, it's a Starbucks kinda morning!" and she thought of us and we had extra hot Starbucks this morning! Thanks God for even helping me get out of bed to get my day started, so that I can get all the little surprises you have set for me that day! I LOVE YOU!


Goodnight, did you have any surprises even with the COLD weather?!?
Tay


P.s. right before I posted this on my Pandora Radio the song from "Sister Act Two" came on "Oh Happy day" and I think that's awesome because what a HAPPY day it was!! Thank you Jesus for my morning, afternoon, and evening on January 20, 2011!!