Beauty from Pain

It's so funny when you can be so high on life that something has to tear it down....you can't have beauty without that pain is what immediately came to mind when I thought that first thought up there. Gosh I had so much to praise praise and thank god for that I know I am not excempt from trail and tribulations but one thing tore it down.

So I've been listening to my prophetic word over and over again to re-energize myself and to get myself together because I was not going to let that one thing tear me down. So another part of my word was, "I am going to put you into a cycle of blessing and it will layer itself upon layers and layers of blessing" WOW right?!? "it will not be excempt from battle or pressure but if you daily ask for help making discerning decisions" that blessing will come to pass....I feel like everyday I've asked for help with this I have been a lot more calm (esp at work with 15 other women (ughhh sometimes x10)) and I have truly sought him out. Now more than ever I am having to ask him "Lord please help me hold my tongue" cause Gal I wanna go off sometimes. Another part of my word, "you are young and tender before me and time after time you have asked yourself God why did they CHOSE to do that, WHY did they not go the other way, my daughter I say to you, you will NEVER be like that, you WILL (like you have) always know the right decisions to make, you WILL NOT have to ask yourself, WHY" awww what a nice relaxing way to end this lil post...I feel like that was my let out....I don't and WILL NOT be one to ask myself WHY but I will know that I am making the right decisions because I am asking for HIS help....ahhhh THANK YOU JESUS!!

This song just popped up...."after all this has past I still will remain"

THE end.

Blessed

Soooo I have some very good news but I want to keep it a secret until it happens. I am seeing my word come to pass in ways I only dreamt about! I am going to tell you what this is in about two weeks.....after the 26th or on the 26th depending on how tired I am afterwards!! Ahhhhh I really just want it to be a shock surprise so I am trying to bite my tongue not to give too much away. Why am I even telling you the little I have?!? Well because telling that much is making it easier to keep this secret inside me contained ;) Well that is all I would like to say right now I just had to spill somethin


Farewell to all.
Waiting patiently :)

P.S. I think I am amazing! :)



Imagine bigger and more cozy pillows :)

 Oh Yes I am amazing! I am in awe of the person God has made me to be! Since I am moving out n' stuff within the next couple months my family is starting to get hit hard by it...they're getting worried we'll never see each other....like I am going to abandon the family or something.


Me abandon the family NO WAY!! My family and I do EVERYTHING together....like no joke all the time. We go grocery shopping together on the weekends and I love it! (I'm pretty sure they love it too) my mom always jokes around that she's going to leave my sisters and me at home because we're so comfortable in the store sometimes we mini wrestle (even with my dad). A couple of times I have sat in the middle of an aisle because I needed a break, or Shell Shell has tickled/twisted my arm and I have spasmed out and fallen on the floor. :) Then there's Ria who we often pick on for her shortyness (my word yep) and then Re-Re gets mad quickly so we upset her :) Then sissors and I like to venture off on our lonesome to look at make-up, clothes (wal-mart), jewelry, and many other things. Sometimes if my mom is at the store to long we venture off to the mall or Kohls. :) It's a great weekend tradition we always have had.


I think when I move out I'm going to tell my parent's that I still want to go grocery shopping with them on the weekends! Yes, Yes, I will tell them that tomorrow!! :) We're also going to have a "Friday night dinner" thing where I come over to eat or they come to my place (like on Gilmore Girls (Greatest show ever PS))




Lorelai and Rory=Great memories!


Another thing I will do when I move out I have decided to not have a dining room table with giant chairs. I hate sitting in chairs. They're hard and stiff and uncomfortable to me, I like COZY! So here's what I am going to do....I'm going oriental style....a mini table with giant pillows or bean bags to sit on at dinner time! :) Being that my momma has an artificial leg I will have to set up something so it's easier for her or she'll prolly take off her leg or somethin' :)


Shell's worried she'll never be able to ask me if I want a Jolly Rancher again, She's also said, "But Tella you can't move...I'm not done wearing your clothes yet" Hahaha Oh sissor shell you is crazy!


Ria's excited to have a whole clean house...I'm prolly the messiest out of the three....clothes everywhere....shoes everywhere....sometimes a heel goes in my foot :( and still I like things sprawled out not confined hahaha!


Ria is also worried my baby Minnie Pearl is going to die of sadness :( I think she'll be super excited to get lots of attention and she won't get picked on by Skyler...she'll be content with me uuuh-huhhh! :)




My room=a little worse :)

 Daddy, he's scared he's loosin his baby (me in case you didn't catch that ;p) he knows I can do it, and that I will be fine he's just daddy worried and I love that....there's gonna be many tears shed the first couple nights I am alone I am sure but, I know the plans God is leading me to and so does Daddy, which makes the experience that much more pleasure then sadness! LOVE MA DADDY!!


So, in the end moving time is approaching, the family is trying to get the idea wrapped around their minds and I...I am ready for this monumental occasion!