I've got this feeling, down deep in my soul!

*Beauty*

A happy Hallelujah to ya! Oh man have I been in a mood lately! I'm not sure what's going to happen but, it's so going to happen! I have been on such a roller coaster with life and it has felt like a whirlwind of crazy lazy hyper radical days! First off a lot of these crazy symptoms have come because of my little friend named PAIN P.ms A.ttack I.n N.o great timing at all! :( I become a big cry baby so I've had a few episodes....plus I'm all alone now and I discovered two other things I don't have....1)Heating pad 2) Ibuprofen WORST feeling ever. Anyway I think I need a comfort item in my new place like a teddy bear that's medium sized that would fit perfectly with my body so he could be my pillow and cuddle buddy.

Sorry for that random comment ha ha. Anyways, I love this song and I blasted it super loud and did my this is my house and no one is going to judge me while I sing at the top of my lungs or at my hideous dancing! :) Here I'll share....
So anyway I change the words to "at 21 years of age I have found my dream, the wars still waged for my destiny....he's already won the battle and has great plans for meeeaayyyy" and continue on :)

Here I sit waiting for this person to txt me back....I LOVE making new friends....I love talking for hours and hours at a time...until it's a boy and he gets the wrong impression....I dislike when friendships become about whether you like me or not and then we can't talk if you don't like me back :( I believe you need to be friends with someone before you get remotely serious on wanting to date...you get to know a person that way and it helps to have a close friend that you can tell anything to....I think it later may lead to strong communication if there is a relationship formed.  On to relationships topic....I have a list of things I desire in my husband to be...I have written letters to him and then later ripped them up...I have dreamt about him once and I saw his image but not his face...and I never found out his name :( I do know there was an "E" when I did try and get his name out....

~*Who Wouldn't Love This Moment Really*~

(No I don't really know if it was a dream about my guy but it was so realistic I couldn't imagine why it couldn't be him) and So with this list I have set aside things I would like to accomplish with my husband....things to discuss...I once made a wedding scrapbook and I know that stuff too....it's weird how girls think of these things and guys don't ha ha....well most don't. I just know that when my love life starts I will so be ready! :) I know I am just steps closer to that time in my life and I cannot wait!

L.O.V.E.

what an awesome thing it is

what a powerful

humorous

growing

nurturing

fragile

shiny

glamorous beautiful thing it is

Awwww I scream just thinking of the thoughts of love and compassion and heart.

The way we'll hold each other, kiss each other, play together,

BE TOGETHER

POWERFUL!

Okay I'm done I got a little lost in the future :)

Lovingly Yours,

ME

SomeWhere Over the RainBow #1625

I have reached what seems to look like the end of a rainbow. I am in my new place on a Friday night, I just finished cleaning the place, which didn't take long at all if I do say so myself.
So now I am about to start my letters to a few certain girls to share to them what I have seen and how much I love'em!

Sitting here in my new place is one that I am embracing right now, as Pastor Bagwell says, this memory is definitely a miracle and this miracle is defnitely one that I have written hardcore down in my brain, it's also in my checkbook with the memo titled #1625.

What is this significant number on the check, my first rent check! Not only the first but, the first of many to clear because God has provided me with this lovely job and apartment and I am in the position to say I am THANKFUL for all I have gone through! From living in an old church prayer room, to a trailer, and so many more places to be thankful for each miraculous memory God has placed in my memory! I also cooked my first meal at my new place, it was a struggle lemme tell ya! It wasn't because I can't cook ;) it was because of all things to forget I neglected to buy a can opener!! CHA tell me about it, I was saddened to say the least and now here's what I ended up using, a flathead screwdriver and hammer....here were the results that got my chili into the pan :) Yep I made those marks with my temporary can opener....is it odd I have all these pink girly tools around my new place and new can opener...I thought so too! Thus I am buying a new can opener so this does not happen again :)

Summer is here and I am ready to make some new memories....I have even decided to start my working out.....it will give me something to do when I am lonely and do not know what to do :) I am way excited about my new adventure....especially if there are more flathead screw driver and hammer moments!

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Movin' on out!

It's official move out day is next Tuesday! I'm kinda freaking out right now, I won't have my parents there, my sister's won't be there, my puppies won't be there....for at least two months!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH


I am painting the first three weeks and then moving everything in, so I guess that's really when I'll stay there....after painting maybe?!? I haven't decided yet, I am just way excited to have people come over and help me paint!


Cherry red bathroom with red, white, and black accents! So excited!
Minty colored bedroom with yellows, and mild blues! With my pink cheetah blanket!
Purple accents in the kitchen and living room!! Yay


I am way excited to have a house warming party!! I can't wait until the place is official show off worthy! I am beyond excited for that party!


I am so blessed to have the people in my life that I do, people want to give me things, take me out to buy things and I didn't even ask for it! I feel so honored that they would want to do this for me! I will try not to cry!


~As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord!
     

Here I am worshipping you-ooooo

Geography

So here I am sitting in Geography class taking notes on the el laptop (it's literally on my lap right now) :) I am sitting here bored and in pain (because I am sitting in this awful chair) thinking and pondering of the juicy orange I will eat when I get home!!


I am also sitting here thinking what is Brittany thinking and I wonder what Nathaniel is thinking while he is in his class two doors down from me :)


Then I am thinking about my Great news I was going to tell everyone......here it is


 I got to speak at the lovely ladies day of excellence at church....not only that but in the Fashion class as one of the teachers. WOW big boost to my confidence.


              Why big boost well HELLO Teri asked me to help her out in the fashion class meaning she thinks I have great fashion which made me excited cause she dresses so nice and it was great to see she thinks I have great fashion sense too (wooohooo me) :)

Fashion

So she asks me please talk about inner beauty...."because you know that anyone can have nice clothes but it takes a real woman to actually be BEAUTIFUL"


So I immediately start praying God please show me what to say, what to share, and how to get my view out to the women I will be speaking to.


I don't even start to think about the older women I will be pouring into until after I start my message. Believe me it is a huge thing to be able to talk for 10 minutes to a room of women who are really taking in what I am saying.


So I get my material ready and I am oober stoked to share it with Teri in our meeting, well we couldn't have our meeting because of our schedules and so I emailed her my outline.


As I emailed her she asks if I could call her because we couldn't meet, so I'm like oh gee it's a horrible outline and I am not conveying my thoughts well.....awww nuts....so I call her as I am on my way home from work and she says, "Well I really liked all of what you wrote...I liked it so much that I said to myself Wow Chantella needs to speak more often"


WOOOW that was awesome news to hear as well. I was so excited that prayers were getting answered and that I could do so much in such a short amount of time it seemed. So I am so excited for the event...bummed I couldn't wear my awesome pink leopard/zebra converse but so excited that I am a teacher for this event....my name was on the pamphlet and everything that was pretty awesome.




Prayer

 So I keep praying God please help me to convey what I am trying to say to these women....please help my nerves to be calm and let me make an impact on somebody.....even though it was fashion let my words come out powerful..


The first class gets into the room....YIKES such harsh stares from the older women in the group and yet it's the end of the day so it's explainable why they are not in happy moods but gee whiz talk about scary....so to me (being the worst critic) I was so nervous that I felt like I couldn't even swallow and all my saliva was about to come pouring out of my mouth (sorry for the visual) and then the class was over...wow that seemed to go by fast. Second group is here and I still have that nerve feeling but I was like, "NO SHAKE IT OFF" so I did and WOWZA

Shaking it off

I did so much better during the second one, I was really able to get my point across and I was so Excited that it came out and I made them laugh which was even better and some of the women looked like they were going to cry (mainly the ones who are usually the ones teaching me) it was awesome to see how proud they were of me and where I have come and what is still to come. !! :)


Wow one awesome blessing and I cannot wait to do so much more I LOVE it.

Teacha Teach :)

This is my outline of what I spoke on~
I want to first start off with the scripture



*Proverbs 19:22 The first line (NLT version) "Loyalty makes a person attractive"


I will then talk about how honor, integrity, obedience, reliability, and trustworthiness are all synonyms for loyalty and how all of these characteristics make a woman abundantly attractive.
I then want to go into the story of Rebekah becoming Issac's wife. Genesis 24: 13-20 (a few verses to make the point more clear)


*I'll read through 13-20 and then talk about how Rebekah was loyal even when she thought it was nothing other than getting water for Issac and his camels.
*Then Colossians 4:5 "Live wisely among those who are not believers and make the most of every opportunity"
*I will then tie each of those to the acronym~LOYALTY


L~Let


O~Only


Y~Your


A~Attitude


*Like Rebekah she immediately was willing to drop her water jug to offer water. She didn't say to Issac, "HA go get it yourself she sacrificed and said, "here I will even give your camels water" Not just a sip of water but she gave them water until they were not thirsty anymore.


~Make sure that you are not just dressing nice and pretty but you are acting that way too, through your attitude (when people are looking and when they are not) Make sure your loyalty to the house is reflecting your beauty.


~When you are asked to do something do it with loyalty and grace, make sure your integrity is keeping up with your attitude. As ladies we can easily see through people and when people look at you and see you make sure they are seeing the great things you are, your willingness to do things for the house.


L~Love


T~The


Y~Yada (I'll explain Yada is praise in motion, "The act of lifting hands")


~My mom always told me "no matter where you are always remember to keep the house of God is cleaner then when you first got there" By that she meant no matter how messy someone left it before you got there it is your LOYALTY to the house to make sure his house is clean. The world is God's house and to me that means even if no one is looking at what I may be doing if I see a piece of trash on the floor that at least 100 people have walked over I make sure to pick it up and throw it away.

Bible love=Electrifying

~Even while in service with the announcement flyer don't just leave yours on the seat because "It's the ushers job to clean it up, they volunteer to clean up" no make sure that your beauty is showing through your actions.


~The act of lifting your hands with love make sure that when you are willing to do things for anywhere in this world you are doing it as an act of love to Jesus, whether it's preparing a presentation, handing someone a plate of food, taking care of children, designing/decorating a house make sure that you are YADA-ING praising him even when others may be doing wrong because HE sees what you are doing and he is the only one that ultimately matters.
**In the end let only your attitude love the yada! because praising and lifting your hands for him and letting your beauty SHINE through the work and time you put in will reflect your beauty because God doesn't want a lazy LIONESS he wants one with a GROWL who knows what she's doing!

Beauty from Pain

It's so funny when you can be so high on life that something has to tear it down....you can't have beauty without that pain is what immediately came to mind when I thought that first thought up there. Gosh I had so much to praise praise and thank god for that I know I am not excempt from trail and tribulations but one thing tore it down.

So I've been listening to my prophetic word over and over again to re-energize myself and to get myself together because I was not going to let that one thing tear me down. So another part of my word was, "I am going to put you into a cycle of blessing and it will layer itself upon layers and layers of blessing" WOW right?!? "it will not be excempt from battle or pressure but if you daily ask for help making discerning decisions" that blessing will come to pass....I feel like everyday I've asked for help with this I have been a lot more calm (esp at work with 15 other women (ughhh sometimes x10)) and I have truly sought him out. Now more than ever I am having to ask him "Lord please help me hold my tongue" cause Gal I wanna go off sometimes. Another part of my word, "you are young and tender before me and time after time you have asked yourself God why did they CHOSE to do that, WHY did they not go the other way, my daughter I say to you, you will NEVER be like that, you WILL (like you have) always know the right decisions to make, you WILL NOT have to ask yourself, WHY" awww what a nice relaxing way to end this lil post...I feel like that was my let out....I don't and WILL NOT be one to ask myself WHY but I will know that I am making the right decisions because I am asking for HIS help....ahhhh THANK YOU JESUS!!

This song just popped up...."after all this has past I still will remain"

THE end.

Blessed

Soooo I have some very good news but I want to keep it a secret until it happens. I am seeing my word come to pass in ways I only dreamt about! I am going to tell you what this is in about two weeks.....after the 26th or on the 26th depending on how tired I am afterwards!! Ahhhhh I really just want it to be a shock surprise so I am trying to bite my tongue not to give too much away. Why am I even telling you the little I have?!? Well because telling that much is making it easier to keep this secret inside me contained ;) Well that is all I would like to say right now I just had to spill somethin


Farewell to all.
Waiting patiently :)

P.S. I think I am amazing! :)



Imagine bigger and more cozy pillows :)

 Oh Yes I am amazing! I am in awe of the person God has made me to be! Since I am moving out n' stuff within the next couple months my family is starting to get hit hard by it...they're getting worried we'll never see each other....like I am going to abandon the family or something.


Me abandon the family NO WAY!! My family and I do EVERYTHING together....like no joke all the time. We go grocery shopping together on the weekends and I love it! (I'm pretty sure they love it too) my mom always jokes around that she's going to leave my sisters and me at home because we're so comfortable in the store sometimes we mini wrestle (even with my dad). A couple of times I have sat in the middle of an aisle because I needed a break, or Shell Shell has tickled/twisted my arm and I have spasmed out and fallen on the floor. :) Then there's Ria who we often pick on for her shortyness (my word yep) and then Re-Re gets mad quickly so we upset her :) Then sissors and I like to venture off on our lonesome to look at make-up, clothes (wal-mart), jewelry, and many other things. Sometimes if my mom is at the store to long we venture off to the mall or Kohls. :) It's a great weekend tradition we always have had.


I think when I move out I'm going to tell my parent's that I still want to go grocery shopping with them on the weekends! Yes, Yes, I will tell them that tomorrow!! :) We're also going to have a "Friday night dinner" thing where I come over to eat or they come to my place (like on Gilmore Girls (Greatest show ever PS))




Lorelai and Rory=Great memories!


Another thing I will do when I move out I have decided to not have a dining room table with giant chairs. I hate sitting in chairs. They're hard and stiff and uncomfortable to me, I like COZY! So here's what I am going to do....I'm going oriental style....a mini table with giant pillows or bean bags to sit on at dinner time! :) Being that my momma has an artificial leg I will have to set up something so it's easier for her or she'll prolly take off her leg or somethin' :)


Shell's worried she'll never be able to ask me if I want a Jolly Rancher again, She's also said, "But Tella you can't move...I'm not done wearing your clothes yet" Hahaha Oh sissor shell you is crazy!


Ria's excited to have a whole clean house...I'm prolly the messiest out of the three....clothes everywhere....shoes everywhere....sometimes a heel goes in my foot :( and still I like things sprawled out not confined hahaha!


Ria is also worried my baby Minnie Pearl is going to die of sadness :( I think she'll be super excited to get lots of attention and she won't get picked on by Skyler...she'll be content with me uuuh-huhhh! :)




My room=a little worse :)

 Daddy, he's scared he's loosin his baby (me in case you didn't catch that ;p) he knows I can do it, and that I will be fine he's just daddy worried and I love that....there's gonna be many tears shed the first couple nights I am alone I am sure but, I know the plans God is leading me to and so does Daddy, which makes the experience that much more pleasure then sadness! LOVE MA DADDY!!


So, in the end moving time is approaching, the family is trying to get the idea wrapped around their minds and I...I am ready for this monumental occasion!