This darn zit

Ohh yeahhhh!!

Zit, so here we go first off I named it this because I sadly have three zits on my chin....there not spread out they're all in one direct spot so it looks like I have a huge bubble on my chin on the left side :( I am sad and I hope they go away.....these are random popped up ones because I rarely get zits nowadays which makes it more worse.



The pretty place I will move to in Parker!

 So other than my own personal zits as I sat here pondering why I would be having this issue and then I thought hey we all have zits in here in our life....both physically and with the people around us. Yes people! I was thinking about the people zits in my life and the ones that ERK me....there isn't a lot but a select few that I can count on my finger that really are pop worthy!! Buuuuttt that's all I am saying about that because I want to talk about growin up!

Yes, I am! Me who cares everyone has their zits and you get over them by the amazing great things and people you do have.

I am spacey when writing but who cares I do not have to be grammatically correct it's my thing :)
I have officially moved up my moving out date....I will officially have my own Apt by May!! YAYYYY So I have been saving my money like crazy for the deposit and the application fee and the furniture I will buy and holy moly it has been hard but it will be so worth it in the end....on top of that I will be finishing school for my teaching degree NEXT YEAR....life is so great! I am so excited!

Right now I am seeing how the experience will be by myself because right now I am doing a weekend babysitting with a few of my favorite kids that I babysit for. I'm not by myself obviously but the kids are asleep and I am upstairs doing hw (oh ps this is my break haha). The kids are in their rooms right next to me and I am watching FRIENDS. In my head this is what my life will be like with my new place.....late hw nights, TV, and snuggling with my Minnie Pearl, cooking my own food (which I do for the whole family anyway), and just me. Me and quiet time, that's what I am so excited for.

One of the greatest shows ever!

Okay so there's my rant and now I am done. I will now start my HW time again. Probably some FB too....and snack

Goodnight,
Tay

Jesus is_____

The Mix!! Gosh I LOVE it! I feel like right when I felt like Gal I'm not a leader in Pulse anymore, I just attend main service! Now don't get me wrong I love it down there, I have gained so much about where I need to be but just being in main service to me is not acceptable! I want to do more than just get the great word, I want to serve and witness to SOMEONE! So then The Mix started...holy wowzah! With the last couple of meetings I have grasped so much it sends tingles and shivers down my body. So we got this challenge a couple weeks ago...right around New Years time and here's the message in a nutshell....



-We A-- had to think of how we would start this new year out right....with a clean slate. Then Pastor Aaron went into further detail.....let's go with people...how can we have a clean slate with people. So then he had this paper passed out and on it it said, "Jesus is______" Pastor Aaron, "Jesus is what to you....to some he's hypocritical to others he's loving, to some he's imaginary, but what is Jesus to you..." The first things that came to mind, loving, forgiving, my lord and savior, awesome, and mighty is he!! He's everlasting and indescribable in a way. So then there's three more sections and they say, "Jesus is giving, Jesus is helpful, and Jesus blesses his enemies" and then in short paragraphs Pastor Aaron asks how can you give to someone in need....how can you help someone in need and think of your enemies and what can you do to bless them."
--He emphasized on time, everyone always says I am so busy I have so much going on in life.....annnnnd so did Jesus so you have to be like him right?!? So then the challenge came....what can you do for the next two weeks (before the next Mix meeting) to give, help, and bless your enemy.


--It was so funny that he said give because I had really wanted to take some time and hang out with a few of my "younger sisters" (I like to add them to the actual younger ones I have) and I spent some time with my Sonia love! I was giving up a Saturday to sleep in so that I could just have chill time with Sonia and hopefully not make it awkward :) (Sonia I hope you're not taking this in a bad way....it's not coming out how I want it to sound) Here this fixes it...I cleared my schedule and made sure to not set anything up that Saturday so that I could focus on Sonia and give her the time, talk, and love she needed. So I gave my time to Sonia so that we could chat and have girl time....Starbucks, Pedicures, A stalker trip to Marshalls ;) then to a movie to see "How do you Know" and then dinner at Chili's where bucket list came into play and we became the restaurant bandits ;) it was a great day to talk about so much and not have a dull moment! I really have been getting pushed to get to know more about my "younger sisters" Sonia, Gabby, and Tanisha! and I do not have to be in Pulse to do so.....to make the Michelle impact I have wanted to make! I LOVE THOSE GIRLS SO MUCH!! They mean the world to me just like my sister's do!!

The next challenge was to help someone in need, who do you know that could use a hand....it doesn't need to be extravagent just something you know will make an impact. So I thought of OH my co-worker....she's a single mom not even knowing where to go and is having a hard time....so I thought bless her with a SHINE magazine!! One that would best fit her needs and let her read it...not force her because there's only so much you can do to help but give her the encouragement she needs.

The harder challenge....blessing your enemies.....we all have them it's no lie....GAL even Pastor Aaron said a little about his. So here's the deal you take or give them something like a Starbucks card and tell them, "Hey God really placed you on my heart and I have really been praying for you this past week and I wanted to just give you a pick me up!" Now if you have enemies and they too know you're not friends ;) watch their reactions they'll be SHOCKED!! Now here's what I ended up doing....While Pastor Aaron was talking he said even just complimenting their outfit that day would be a nice gesture (I literally sat their thinking of who I was going to bless and TWITCHED because this person's outfits are outrageous and I could never say they looked good because I would be lying (hey it's honesty)) So I thought "okay I'll bring them coffee....they're always drinking coffee....now I would do it in person too...not over text, not putting something in their mailbox but going up to them in person showing them I truly was making the effort to bless them...going out of my way to give them something." So the reaction I got, I prayed too I didn't just say God placed them on my heart and not do anything about it but I prayed for them throughout the days of that week. The day came around and here was my opportunity....I was exhausted and I just wanted to sleep but I said "no I have to do this I have to bless them even though it will be weird and not the best time but God sees where I am at" so I got dressed, went to Starbucks got a White Chocolate Mocha, and then went on my way to take it to them...So I saw this person and they were with their male companion and I asked the person, "Do you have a minute?" she said..."Ummm does he need to come to?" "No this will just take a sec" "Ar-Ar-are you sure he doesn't need to be there" "Oh yeah I'm positive it's nothing bad I just want to give you something real quick" "we-we-we-well ummmm can he come please?" (as she is like death gripping his bicep) "Ummm sure (we go to a side hall and as we're walking) "I'm not planning on hitting or fighting you" (she literally had a face that looked like I was going to punch her or something it was quite hysterical). "So I just wanted to bless you with this coffee, God really brought you to mind the past two weeks (we got snowed out the first week I wanted to do this) and I have really been praying for you. I don't know if anything is going on but you just got a lot of extra prayers and I wanted you to have this warm coffee and the blessing from me, so here you go" and she was STUNNED she was SPEECHLESS the words slowly trickled out of her mouth, "ttthhhank youuuuuu?!?!?" and then a hug. Not much said but I totally got the reaction where she truly didn't ever see it coming and that's what I wanted I am not holding grudges and I think she really needed to see that. I haven't really seen this person around much but she later got my number from someone and text me later and said what she couldn't say in person, "wow thanks for the coffee, it was such a great surprise and thank you so much for the prayers"

See so what can you do?!? Can you get a reaction out of one of your greatest enemies like that,.....can you give your time to someone who has been wanting to hang out with you.....can you help someone who is going through a difficult situation?!? Everyone can truly use a great surprise....not just for a holiday but for any random day. Those are the best kinds of gifts you can give....give them to someone when they least expect it! You never know after that day how much you really made an impact in those people's lives!


So I challenge you.....can you GIVE, HELP, and BLESS YOUR ENEMIES?!?

Curious?!?

Sooo to start this off I'm going to go with the award I recieved from Morgan a couple days ago


7 things many people don't know about me:


*I'm allergic to cats and smoke...any kind of smoke (I found out I'm allergic to fire smoke this year at the Parade of Lights) I get wheezy and all red in the eyes and it kinda gets hard to breath like I have a hair caught in my throat.


*I'm moving out in August or October to be on my own without my parents (not because I don't love my parents but because God's really been dealing with me about being a grown up...it's a conversation him and I have had that really goes deep between him and I)


*I HATE the smell of Sweet Pea ANYTHING because that's all I got for like a year straight so the smell makes me want to puke!


*I KNOW not everyone can work with children and it truly takes a SPECIAL GIFT to be able to truly appreciate them through the good the bad and the ugly and if you're doing a child wrong I will tell you and not care what you think of me.


*I truly know some of my destiny and calling of where God wants me and I cannot wait to get there


*I've NEVER EVER EVER had a true girl best friend. Girls and I have never gotten along well enough to become close. Really and truly I open up to God and God alone and I don't have that girl friend bond. I pray God sends me someone to Sharpen me...I want that Iron sharpens Iron friendship!!


*I have big plans for my 22nd birthday because it is my golden birthday!! YAY!


Okay I changed my mind, it's late and I'm gonna crash now!! Goodnight!

My baby....

.....Has the cutest ways.....

.....Of sleeping and I LOVE IT!!

*Today=warm weather!

I just read through Jesseca's blog and liked hers, this one may be just as jumpy. I am starting to write before I head out the door for school. English class with my 1st GUY professor!! YIKES having guy teachers are always on the fence with me because I've had guy teachers that have A-hit on me BLEGH and B-guy teachers that are just plain buttheads and C-a select few that have been a great teacher and I loved how they taught. So after class I'll share about my experience!

Today I am going to share about my LOVELY job....the reason I go to english class and many others. I had to share this photo of the cute little TOMS!! This little girl Lily had them on Wednesday and they made me want TOMS so much because they just looked so cute on her little feet.
      Lily there's a story behind this little mini. Her dad died this summer, she turned 3 a couple days after his death. It's crazy, I go back to the first day I met Lily and her sister, Lauren (who is 5). My director Jennifer came in and introduced me to these two little girls, she told me there were going to be in my summer class and they were both very nervous,....more so Mom Lindsay was nervous about the situation. I didn't know until after I was introduced to these little ones that their daddy had past away. I later found out that he went into surgery to have something removed off(I cannot recall exactly what it was...something in the heart or brain, something major) and there were complications and he didn't make it through. These tiny little things walked into my care and truly I was held responsible for these little ones to make sure they had a great time. I had to make sure to ease mom into being comfortable and making the girls sort of happy while I'm sure everyone else in their world at the moment was mourning and they don't exactly grasp the concept of death quite yet. So I made sure to make this little Lily and Lauren have fun! I did just that! Helped them through their need of summer lovin'. These girls had so much fun and had the cutest smiles, voices, and so many other adorable quirks They came in everyday and sat on my lap or in my chair.


My Lily=Precious and Priceless



Later on that summer as time had past and mom grew more and more comfortable and happy (as happy as you can be after losing a spouse) one day the girls stood for After Care (so when the whole morning summer classes and afternoon classes were over they stood until about 4 or 430 (school ends at 2:50)) they stood with my mom (the after care teacher) well mom came in and the girls were playing in playland and their Mom told my Mom that Lily always tells her mom, "I just love Ms. Chantella! She's my hero!!" Gal I lost it!  When my mom told me that Lily says that I cried and then my mom continued to tell me how much their mom appreciates me and how much I have helped her feel safe with leaving the girls at school so she can get herself better for those girls. I still get teary eyed just thinking about it. (if my typing doesn't make sense it's because of tears streaming down my cheeks). This little thing thinks I'm her hero, now I know God is and was working miracles for that little one through me. I could not be her "Hero" without him helping me. This is why I know my passion, my calling, my ME goes here. God has given me a patience and peaceful heart to be able to do what I do not just for money cause I am definitely not doing it for money but doing it because I can make an impact in little girls and boys lives! "Thank you Jesus for putting me in this field, it is so rewarding and so humbling!"    I was just listening to this on my Pandora radio and GOSH it's a perfect fit....I am so lost without him...he gives me my guidance and direction I need. ".....Daily saith God ask me for the power to make discerning decisions, ask me for the power to chose to do what is right in my sight and I will put you in a cycle of blessing...." that right there is PART of the prophetic word I got on APRIL 25, 2010. WOW almost a year later and I know I am on that path of blessing and I have asked for his power to make any and all decisions....have I fought some YES but in the end I have given in and let go! For this I am GRATEFUL and I have listened to Jesus and I have done what I needed to do.

    One final story, a funny Lily story. Lindsay, Lily and Lauren's mom overheard the two girls arguing back and forth and decided to listen in, and here's what she heard, "I have a boyfriend and I am going to get married to him and you don't have one and you'll never get married!"-Lauren "Yes, yes I will!! You know what I am going to marry Ms.Chantella! Cause she loves me!!"-Lily Now of course it's just a funny story and they don't know that marrying girls is not okay haha but it was SOOOoooo cute to hear that story too! I love that she loves me so much and I love her tiny little body and feet that fit into little TOMS like this!! Beautiful Soul!

Now about school. Class tonight started at 5:30 and ended at 6:05...it's supposed to go until 8:15 but because he had an emergency he let class out early! Which I commend him for even having class because he was attached to his cell phone the moments we did have class so he could keep posted. Overall my first impression was WOW way different then my stick in the butt english teacher from last semester. He tries "to be funny" but he's quirky so I think I'll def have some fun in that class. He's very mellow so I am not nervous too much and I kinda made a class friend. Brittany and I both did....we are not talkers to strangers but I think because of how the teacher approached the class the rest of us felt at ease. All my nerves are calmed for this semester even though I have 5 classes and am working. I always work myself up only to know that I truly have it under control again because JESUS IS SO AWESOME! I'll have the strength to have those late nights (which I'm sure they'll come) and those early mornings (which happens OFTEN) but I am excited!!


Starbucks and Goldfish so I didn't get jittery during
the morning haha :)




The snow that fell last night
while I was babysitting
Collier and Kira
(6 and 7)

 Ps. I also had to share what AWESOME parents I have (not my mom and dad) but my students parents. Today it was cold when I did carpool and there was snow on the ground!  I woke up not wanting to get out of my blankets and when I got to work I didn't even want to take of my coat! Little did I know what I would be so thankful for! One of my parents of twins (Tanner and Allison 3 years old) would forget to bring shoes with her kids (they don't wear shoes in the car apparently, funny but understandable, less messy).   So Shannon (mom) went back home to grab their shoes.....she came back.....then she turned to us and said, "these are for you guys, it's a Starbucks kinda morning!" and she thought of us and we had extra hot Starbucks this morning! Thanks God for even helping me get out of bed to get my day started, so that I can get all the little surprises you have set for me that day! I LOVE YOU!


Goodnight, did you have any surprises even with the COLD weather?!?
Tay


P.s. right before I posted this on my Pandora Radio the song from "Sister Act Two" came on "Oh Happy day" and I think that's awesome because what a HAPPY day it was!! Thank you Jesus for my morning, afternoon, and evening on January 20, 2011!!

Appetizers and ENTREES

Nail Polish is a great way to start this blog out. I'm sort of in a nail painting kinda mood. Something to soothe me at this moment other than reading my book, talking to a dear guy friend, and starting to listen to my music and 9news for the weather. :) 9news is the greatest news!! Just ta let you know ;) Okay so the real reason I am writing this journal entry (I like journal better than blog because this is truly personal for me and I want your thoughts, opinions, comments,etc.). So anyway I am pretty 100% positive EVERY girl writes A BOY entry so here goes mine. HONESTY TRULY IS THE BEST POLICY!! ESPECIALLY WHEN IT COMES TO GUYS!! So here goes....

I've been reading this book Teri let me borrow about guys, actually I have three of her books and this is the second one I am reading. I LOVED the first one it definitely helped me change a few things that I knew but the book gave me more insight and I changed them. So I have recently started reading the SECOND book, "Ending the Search for Mr. Right"----Why am I reading this well because I am GETTING ready for MY ONE. I am making sure I am the one ready for when that time comes for us to MEET!! First off after I started reading this book NO JOKE two days later I had this BIZZARRO (word?!? Meh oh well) dream about MY ONE!! Trust me BIZARRE. I'm not going to go into details here because I only trusted a COUPLE people to know about this DESTINY that awaits. Back to the book....

.....there was this part in the book that talked about men being like APPETIZERS and ENTREES. Need some explanation?!? SO DID I!! SO here goes Isaiah 55:2 (NLT translation) "Why spend your money on food that does not give you strength? Why pay for food that does you no good? Listen, and I will tell you where to get food that is good for the soul!"

What does that have to do with guys you ask?!?....I still haven't given you enough right :) so OUR GUY appetizers are those dear GUY FRIENDS we all have (YES, it can absolutely happen for guys and girls to be FRIENDS). Why are your guy friends like appetizers?!? BECAUSE some boys ARE meant to be in your life to help mold you into the woman you should be (god places them there) there are some guys that are there for you but are the nasty TASTE you sometimes get in your mouth when eating a NEW appetizer. Some of those appetizer guys are not that GREAT taste of friendship for you even though a lot of time we want PUSH OURSELVES to make them be. Would you keep eating that fish if you truly couldn't down it or would you push it to the side, toss it,and ask for something else?!? WE hate (most likely) giving up some guy friends that we have because they have been there for so long. we want to keep them around because we've known them for YEARS but, if they're no good and all they do is tear us down or keep making us get that sick feeling they need to go! Other appetizer boys help us to understand guys and which guys to stay away from we need to keep them around so that we can IMPROVE who we are! They are the ones who we can run to and know if SOME guy DOES hurt us they'll be there to "kick his butt" in a sense.

OKAY OKAY so the entree....If appetizers are our GUY friends that are there and they get us PREPARED for the "real meal" then OUR ONE (my one) is the ENTREE!! What an exciting way to think of it!! My one is the ENTREE! Okay so we all end up ordering and waiting for our main course. Now we get the APPETIZERS to hold us down until the big meal comes along that's how that ONE GUY is to us. We make GREAT guy friends along the way and then we anticipate the arrival of THAT ONE. The one that makes our mouths water and fills us just to the tee. (if you're ANYTHING like me you often can't get enough of them so you ask for a TO GO box to TAKE IT HOME). In the end we take our entree, our ONE HOME we get to take him and keep him because he's the filling we need to keep us US!!


This great entree is from this cute lil restaurant a few of my friends and I went to celebrate CHelle's 26th birthday! OMGOSH great food!! I so cannot wait to take TANISHA there!!



That is such an AWAKENING to me! Such a way to see things in a DIFFERENT light but, a light that makes TOTAL sense. I sure hope it helped you maybe see some things out. I am still reading this addicting book and I want to share SO MUCH more but there's too much going on in my head right now. Wait til my next post...I'll probably be giving you a different INSIGHT to see DIAMONDS and how they're "GIRLS BEST FRIENDS" ;)
I leave you with this....GOD...JESUS...THE ONE AND ONLY is who I am putting my trust in. I am trusting him to help me read through these great books and guide me into what I need to do. Before my ONE walks into my life I need to MAKE 100% SURE I am ready for him, so he doesn't have to be my crutch necessarily. He needs to be there to protect me not be my therapist!


In the book there are random MAN FACTS throughout each chapter: Men are attracted to women who are not looking for a man. They can SMELL desperation a mile away, and it is sure to make them run in the other direction.


Praying whole heartily,
Chantella

P.S. Why I started with NAIL polish I do NOT recall. I got caught up in explaining to you and I kinda lost where I was going with that nail polish talk ;)

On this road again!

All you can really see that sticks out is new year! I am almost positive that a lot of you have heard this new year talk and have gotten excited, some have made new years resolutions and others have decided to take new steps and new leads to change their lives for better I'm sure.
    I have decided that this year will be progressing to even greater blessing!! Not just for me but for my family and friends, for my church, and my workplace! I absolutely love my life and would not like to change any of where I have come from. I have been blessed with such a loving family that I know not to take it for granted because I know not any one person has what I have!
      This first journal entry I am writing is to express who I am! I want you to know me for me so that when I start to get deep and start to share more and more you know who you're dealing with.
    First and foremost I am 21....ME 21 I still am in shock every time someone asks/says it because I cannot believe that I am this old. I feel like being 17 was only yesterday! I like to think I am growing up but sometimes I just let myself go knowing that I still am a child of God living life to the fullest all because of what he did for me. I catch myself in the toughest situations saying, "No stop others have it worse be THANKFUL for what you have" and then I take a deep breath (Mmm) and I am semi back to normal.
    Random facts:
          *When I eat potato chips, french fries, or anything that comes in portions from a bag, carrots, green beans, pizza rolls, etc I'm a little OCD and have to eat the smallest ones first. (this I shared with my lovely close friend I call my other fam Sonia) it's true though I for some reason go directly for the smallest item on the plate/bowl/etc.
       * I love being jumpy and spastic
       *I make really funny noices when I tell a story
       *or I have my hands all over the place
       *I can never sit still I have to be moving no matter what
      *when I talk with people I stare at their eyes or mouth and if they look uncomfortable or if they are smiling the whole time or have a serious face I have to look away for a split second so I can keep my train of thought
       * I love my toes...Their cute little itty bitty toes but I love the way my feet look
       *My toes HAVE to be painted otherwise I feel naked, even if I have close toed shoes.


Serious facts:
       *I hate being alone in new places and I have to have someone's arm to hold onto when I walk into a new place (like my security blanket)
       *I don't talk with any family outside of the ones that live with me (mom, dad, and my 2 sisters)
       *I like not talking to my "outside family" because I know if we did talk and were close I would not be where I am today...God pulled us out of that and has grown us so much more.
      *I never take two hours to get ready to go some where.
     *I plan my outfits the night before so I can just wake up throw them on (sometimes literally) and walk out the door after brushing my teeth, washing my face and putting make up on (eye liner and blush...sometimes eye shadow)
     * I have very different relationships with my sisters and when we get mad and fight it gets scary


Silly funny facts:
    * I chose to start this blog back up because I have a lot I want to remember this year and having to write it all out with pen and paper seems like a lot of work....and I type way faster. :)
    *I love getting my hair played with...runnning fingers through my hair is very relaxing
    *I rarely brush or comb my hair....it falls into the postion I like with just blow drying and finger shaking :)
    *I LOVE pickles!
    *I love the first and last snow of the season everything in between I usually can do without. :)
    * flip flops are so my thing
    *I love wearing heels
     *I hate when I txt someone and they use short one word answers


I feel like there is so much more to say but I don't want to say it all because that will take forever.
As this journey goes I cannot wait to see where it ends up. I am so excited for this year because Jesus is going to do so much.
Pastor Bagwell was talking about in church this morning that the past two years for a lot of people have been rough and tough and God/Jesus is going to restore and bless them and help change them if they're willing to accept.


The past two years for me have been great. Have I gone through my battles through the years YES of course. Just like anyone else has I have had my ups and downs but God has placed this growing blessing on my family and I. Things we have never done we have done the last two years. God has opened so many doors for us that this....right here.....right now is just the beginning of what is to come. I am anticipating this time and I cannot tell you how EXCITED I am!! Huge blessing is just around the corner. I am not placing any limits on this because I know what God has called for me and what is to come. In the last two years I got my second prophetic word prophicied over me. The 1st one was years ago and if I knew what I know now I would have wrote it down...so I do not recall. I do know to the tee what Had been prophecied over me and I will have to share that story another time when it's the right time.


I hope you enjoyed this first look into ME. A crowned JEWEL of his!


Taking those first few steps,
Chantella

**Ps. I have always loved these lil ones (PRECIOIUS MOMENTS) I found one and color painted it....not too sure how I feel about the colored one but it was fun!


Have a great morning/afternoon/night